Before I Was A Mum

Before I Was A Mum


Before I was a Mum
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.


Before I was a Mum
I slept as late as I wanted
   And never worried about how late
   I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.


Before I was a Mum,
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys
   or forgot words to lullabies.


Before I was a Mum,
I didn't worry whether or not my
   plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.


Before I was a Mum,
I had never been pooped on,
   Spit up on,
   Chewed on,
   Peed on,
   Or pinched by tiny fingers.


Before I was a Mum,
I had complete control of myself;
   My thoughts,
   My body,
   And my mind.
I slept all night.


Before I was a Mum,
I never held down a screaming child
so that doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.


Before I was a Mum,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't
   want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
   when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew something so small could affect my
   life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mum.


Before I was a Mum,
I didn't know the feeling of having my
   heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel
   to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a
   Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
   could make me feel so important.


Before I was a Mum,
I had never got up in the middle of
   the night every ten minutes to make
   sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
   The joy,
   The love,
   The heartache,
   The wonderfulment,
   Or the satisfaction of being a Mum.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so
   much before I was a Mum.


Author Unknown.