A Little Slice Of Heaven

Today in the mail we received a DVD of Rosie. I ran to the DVD player at full speed put it in hit play and the display in the screen read: cannot read disc. My heart sank but I bounded up the stairs and ran to our bedroom, put the disc in and on the screen appeared the words: wrong kind of disc. I came bounding back downstairs and shoved and I mean shoved, it into the computer this time I was greeted with the message: windows media player cannot play this type of disc. My mouth fell open and I was close to tears. Jacob, cos he knows me so well, was grabbing the Notebook out of it's case and took the disc from me. This was it if we didn't have success this time we would be out of luck.

It took a bit longer than usual but all of a sudden we got to see our little girl. She has changed so much. She has hair now. Oddly enough she looks alot like Lily did when she was little. The disc was comprised of 3 short clips, one of her in the bath, one of her eating, boy can she pack it away and one of her playing. Her nanny was trying very hard to elicit a smile but she wasn't having any of it. At one point she almost smiled but changed her mind. She was very intently playing with her toys and was not about to do what anybody wanted her to do which was clap her hands. She sat very still and just looked bewildered.

I cried. I cried because she is mine and I can't have her, I cried because she looks so sad, I cried because she just looks lost and lastly I cried because it is what I do!

If anybody wants me I will have my face attached to the Apple and will not be moving until someone says I can get on the plane.

Our very own little slice of heaven and we cannot wait to share her. I must go now, I have my favourite movie to watch.